I Am Me

Saturday, May 14

Futility

I feel like the general public will never accept GLBT/Queer individuals and personalities as real, honest, true, right, and goddamn moral.

I feel like no one wants to spend time with me.

I've been drinking a lot lately, and last night I had 5 sleeping pills, and totally blacked out. I don't remember the 40 minute conversation I had with my sister last night.

Sometimes, I think it's all useless. Why should I keep on going? Why should I even bother? What's the use?

Even if I have something to offer the world, why should I put myself out there, if the world doesn't appreciate or want it from me?

Why don't I have solid willpower or motivation to keep on doing and accomplishing the things I want to accomplish?

What about the person, the woman I want to be?

Do I even matter?

Kim 11:45 PM |