I Am Me

Friday, April 15

I hurt. I know, it's 4:30 in the morning - everyone does not feel their best at 4:30 in the morning. But it hurts for me to take a deep breath. This has happened to me before, and determined to be not at all related to asthma or anything organic. I'm apparently just stressed.

So I guess that means I'm having a mental breakdown, or at least, I'm so stressed that my physical body is crying out for help. And all I want to do is go back to sleep. But that is a bad idea for 2 reasons: 1) I need to finish analyzing my research for my math seminar, and 2) since I hurt like this, I really won't be able to lay down without making my breathing WAY more uncomfortable. Even sitting while I'm typing this is more painful than standing. But still. I'm TIRED. I want to sleep. I have work from 7-11am. Now, I know I could call in sick to work, and then I could sleep for a few more hours before trying this research analyzation at a more reasonable hour, like say, when the sun is up. But that would start a bad pattern. It's only 6th week. I think if I start calling off work to finish my homework, I'm never going to go to work as much as I should...and then I'll see a decrease in my paycheck, and I can't deal with that.

Argh. I got a call about 8 o clock last night from a creditor. Apparently I've been ignoring my MCI long distance phone bill since about January... and what used to be 12 bucks and change is now over 38!!! Shit, I don't have 38 bucks...

Owwwie. I hurt. I just want to curl up in the fetal position on my bed and cry. But that, too, would hurt too much.

:-(

Kim 4:41 AM |