I Am Me

Thursday, January 20

Tonight was the scaredest I've felt in a long time. I almost decided to OD on my meds. I know I have a lot going on in my life. I'm failing a class, potentially not graduating, and , of course, hugely in debt. There's more to life than what I can accomplish. I think my biggest goal is to affect people.

It's so strange. I've been very passionate about math for so long, I never questioned why I had this passion, or where it originated. Now, looking back, I realize that I will never enjoy math again, not the way I used to. I used to like math because it was easy, I understood it, and it was easy. Now, there is no croncreteness to the high-level math I'm attempting to study. So, it's lost all its pizzaaz. Then, I wanted to be an accountant, simply because it was easy wnough, but I lacked the passion to continue. Now, I wish I was studing sociology, social welfare, and women/gender studies. Oh, if only I could take these 4 years back....

I'm really grateful to have my daddy in my life. He really was there for me tonight, said exactly what I needed to hear, and made me believe it was possible to not only survive this era of my life, but excel in diferent ways.

Although I'll be really busy for a Thursday, I wanted to leave y'all with some type of interesting reflection. Well, I'm being a slacker, once again, so big-surprise. I'm just gonna tell you about my dad's safety slogan for his workplace. "If you die at work today, your spouse will get to spend your 401K."

Cracked me up. It's hilarious.

Well, talk to y'all later.

Peace, Kimmers

Kim 3:14 AM |